For those of you that know me, you would know that school has not always been "my thing." At Oregon State I struggled through 4 years of school, and by the grace of God didn't get kicked out of OSU. I found myself in Corvallis last Spring with the majority of my friends migrating back to Portland, a boyfriend coming home to Portland and I was staring down one more year of school before graduation. After much thought and consideration I decided to become a Viking. Decided to put on that green and black and forge forward as a Portland State student. It was a little intimidating and I knew it wasn't going to be the easiest transition ever, but I also knew quitting wasn't an option this late in the game. Believe me, I thought about it though. I saw my friends who were nannies making WAY more money than I do at Nike. Making enough money to at least afford rent, so trust me I thought about moving to Portland, getting my own place and being a nanny until who knows what the next step would have been.
I have used this metaphor before, but school is my Everest. It has never and I mean never been a downward slide for me. It is always an uphill climb. My hat is off to those that got through school in 4 years, no sweat off their backs, because I am not among you. I think there are alot of reasons why that is for me like: I am a relational person, I often would choose friendships/ relationships over my school work, took me awhile to develop healthy practical studying mechanisms, and I also blame my creative artistic mind. I would rather be writing a blog, going for a run, working on projects, playing my guitar and so on, and also I do have a part time job that takes up time. However, I am here to say that I am not giving up! This term might be the death of me, but I will conquer it. I will press on, and I WILL graduate in December. 8.5 months away from a degree.
I was watching Khloe and Lamar on t.v this morning as I drank my coffee, and just thought about their lifestyle. The riches, the material items. It's easy to want those things when you see them, and if I am being honest it's easy to get sucked into that Cali lifestyle and dreaming big! But I know that my life will not be that. And that's ok, my point is that I want to earn my degree and I want to support myself in this life doing a job that I love, and that I have passion for. I get excited when I think about putting money down to get my own condo or small home. Getting a dog I can run with in the morning. And someday who knows when, having a family too.
So here is to forging through to graduation; December oh how I look forward to you in excitement, and maybe slight desperation at times.
Love and Pressing On