I'm a dreamer, I'm a creative. Being a dreamer is a great thing, but it takes surrender. I think it's important to dream, God wants us to dream! But I think he also wants us to to surrender our dreams so that he can either bless us, or show us what immeasurably more he had in mind. Blessings we could have never dreamed up on our own. We often don't believe in ourselves as much as God does. We think we are not good enough, or we aren't holy enough for God to use us in His story. Someone else is always more equipped, someone else is more versed in the teachings of the Bible. But what if we just surrendered moments to Him that we might be USED by Him?
When I was in California visiting Ali, she had dropped me off at Starbucks while she helped some friends set up a fireworks stand. So I was sitting and reading my Bible drinking a soy hazelnut latte, when a man came up to me and asked if he could borrow my phone. Wanting to help the man I offered that he ask Starbucks for their phone. I learned from years of riding The Max (Portland public transportation) that it is usually not wise to let them borrow your phone. The man looked at me and tears started filling his eyes and he told me he was too embarrassed to ask Starbucks for their phone. He went on to explain that he was a diabetic, he needed more insulin and how he was really down on his luck. I remembered I had a bag of mixed nuts the airlines had given me and so I rummaged for those and handed them to the man. He was grateful and ate them right away. I figured the sugar would help him feel a little better. The man went and sat back down at his table behind mine. I continued reading and he kept wanting to have conversation. I listened to how he had just lost his job and his condo in Azusa and he apologized that he had asked me for help while I was on vacation. I asked him his name and he said it was James. I went inside and bought James a cup of coffee and brought it out to him. With tears in his eyes he gave me a meaningful thank you and I sat back down to continue reading. It was in that moment that I asked the Lord to direct me. I instantly felt convicted that I do not have more scripture memorized. I can easily tell people about Jesus and all he has done for us, but reciting encouraging words, or remembering truths he has promised is something I want to be capable of. I am really trying to work on that. I want to be a woman with scripture written on my heart.
In meeting James I was reminded that we need to be willing to be inconvenienced in our day to love others and to show them they matter. I don't know if James will remember that I bought him a cup of coffee or shared my peanuts, but I hope he felt cared for and loved by the Lord as I listened to his heart and hopefully made him feel significant in this big world. Everyone needs to feel significant, because we are to God.
Love and Significance